I was always raised to
treat others the way you would like to be treated. So I have always treated
those that I like, love and care about the same way I want to be treated. I
don’t throw rocks while living in a glass house. *smiles* so why is it now that
I am questioning my thoughts and new friends in my life?
I recently joined a local
kink community, I've attended a few workshops, socials and play party, and
everyone seems nice, welcoming and willing to teach. So I have started to
become friends with a few people, as friendship comes with trust and time spent
together in my world. Recently there have been a few situations where I have
invited a new so called friend to dinner, or hang out and they've given me an
answer sort of to the point of maybe. No worries, that’s fine, but my thought
process is when you’re invited to dinner and the reason you’re giving a maybe
is because you need to check on availability and then the night of the dinner,
you decide to do out with others, it just gives me the taste in my mouth that I
am a second option. I don’t like that feeling, and I wouldn't treat
anyone that way. If I give inkling to someone that I might attend then I
attend, even if someone else invites me to something bigger, sparklier, better,
I don’t want anyone to question my values, ethics or our friendship. Because when
I extend a friendship to my inner circle, It’s precious to me, its valuable.
So now I am questioning
if my expectations and upbringing is totally off, or if what I view as respect
of friendship is too high. How do you keep yourself in tact while trying
to extend yourself to learn, love, and trust others?
