Updates! Oh what an update!

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I was looking for my blog today to send it to a friend so they could read about my life and realized I haven’t written anything since A and I broke up in April. So many changes!

I moved out in June. I found a cute little one bedroom condo in the Fletcher Hills area with a garage, and pool!!! Boy have I used that pool A LOT!! A and I haven’t talked since the week after I moved out when he threatened to call the police on me, he went missing again and his mom was worried so I checked on him. He didn’t like that and that was the end of any  friendship we thought we would have. 

It s been tough because I know he is hurting and confused, but I also know that I can’t help him at all. When he hits rock bottom he’ll ask for help from someone and I truly hope they are there for him.

The A that I knew at the hospital that was clean and focused is an amazing man. The A that is fighting his demons and medicating it with various drugs is someone I don’t know, understand or have room in my life for.

I’ll be honest it was hard and very painful to realize that someone who’s life I saved and who I felt this karmic connection to, wants nothing to do with me. But as I learned a long time ago sometimes people do the hard things for us when it seems they don’t love us, when in reality they do. So I try to look at the positive of the situation.

Leaving A opened up life for an amazing person to come into it. I’ve loved a ton in my life and I have felt connections to people, but what I feel with G is scary, exciting and amazing.  We’ve been officially together almost 2 months, and each day is better than the last. We have done so much together in the past 2 months; he even gave me a song. J

Amazed by Lonestar.   When I feel bad or unsure about things I just listen to the song and imagine him singing it to me as he did the first time at the river.

I’m sure I’ll write more about him blog, as I can’t imagine life without him. But for now just know I’m still around and for the first time in my 45 years I feel like I am where I am suppose to be.