Amazing the dating world. I do a lot of online dating, always think that I have a pretty good meter to figuring out when something is just not right. I may want to re-think that after the past few men I have gotten involved in. I'll have to write about them, they'd make a great book.
So this most recent situation has me thinking I need to take my BS meter in for a tune up. I responded to an ad on a local website that a man posted looking for a friend to go to Disneyland. Let's call him Disneylandia.
So Disneylandia gave this sob story about divorcing his wife, she cheated on him and he was lonely. So I responded, well we didn't end up going to Disneyland. He actually never went, but we did continue emailing spilling secrets to each other about our hurts. He wrote telling me all about his broken heart how his soon to be ex wife (that should have been the first flag, in his ad he said he was divorced) had cheated on him sending him into an emotional spin he was on admin leave from his VA police job till he could pass a psych evaluation, yadda yadda yadda.
After a day or so of spilling our stories on email to each other he gives me his number. We talk on the phone and he starts telling me his deepest sexual desires, how he was bi-sexual, wanted a cuck hold relationship, etc. None of this scared me, hey I'm very sexually open, but the fact that I want a RELATIONSHIP first before a sexual relationship. That I want a man that is into me courts me, dates me, I am working on my boundary of keeping it to old fashioned dating. I sent him an email stating I didn't think that he was in a place to date right now and that I wasn't in a place to be in a relationship with someone with no attachment. He sends me this supposedly heart felt email telling me how much he cares about me etc etc. I asked for some time to process everything. I should of walked away when he didn't know how to respect that boundary, kept texting and calling that night. The next day after praying, meditating, journaling, and came to the decision that I could only offer this man two choices either dating or strictly friends.
I sent an email to him stating this and advised him to talk to his counselor. He comes back to me over the next few days saying he really wanted to date me. That he was fine...well the next two kickers secure my BS meter needing a tune up. After a few days of calls and emails, he calls me crying saying that his best friend was killed in Iraq the day before and he was taking it very hard. My heart went out to him. I finally gave in to allowing him to meet me.
So Disneylandia came over to my house after work the next day. We talked cuddled on the couch, I'll admit messed around a bit. Then he had to leave to take his son to baseball practice. The entire day something was bugging me, I sent a few texts no responses.
About 1:30am I get a response back and its from his WIFE. Well he lied! What a shocker huh? That's CL for ya. Although he didn't lie about everything he did lie about the divorce and not wanting to get back with her. THE KICKER is he LIED about his friend dying in Iraq. WHO DOES THAT? REALLY who does that? Come on!
*shaking head* I seriously am thinking about turning lesbian, or what about a nice t-girl. I mean being Bi-sexual a nice t-girl would be awesome, tits and cock best of TWO worlds. Alas I'd just like to meet a nice man that knows what it means to be totally into a woman, court her and make her feel special. *sighs* oh and be emotionally available.
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