The Truth of the Matter

I want a Boy Friend, which will eventually lead to a husband, and I would like this relationship to turn to a marriage within a eighteen months to two years from when we start dating.

Having recently listened to some information from Allison Armstrong about being honest when dating, figuring out my deal breakers, and stop dating ass backwards, I realized I need to be more truthful with myself and those I date.

So the truth of the matter is I want a BOY FRIEND and I don’t mean a short term relationship I mean in the long run I want a HUSBAND. So why am I dating men that are more short term situations? Why have I been thinking well its okay to date this guy right now even though I really want to be married? Not truthful or smart really.

Why am I ignoring what I TRULY want and ignoring my deal breakers for men who aren’t looking for the same thing as me? Why am I allowing them to effect me emotionally, mentally or physically? Why am I allowing myself to get attached to men who well they aren’t a partner for me?

I need to tell that biological part of me to be patient, to not get attached. I need to tell that clock that it needs to stop WANTING so badly and to realize that the right one is out there. I’m not at all say a CINDERELLA moment, or that I want a movie romance. No just a true honest to goodness REALTIONSHIP that will lead to marriage.

I need to be HONEST while dating. It’s important to me to get remarried, I would like the option to have children (even if that means adoption) if I decide I truly want them, I would like a man who is my best friend and provider. I would like to be a stay at home mom if children occur. It’s important that my future husband likes to and has a DESIRE to TRAVEL. I’d like us to have enough money to be comfortable enough to do this. I’d like to have a nice home, with a wrap around porch and a garden to grow in.

I know that I am physically attracted to Yumminess and M, but that is not enough and actually a very dangerous situation for what I am truly desiring in my life. Even The Past our situation was PURE chemistry and it would never have worked.

So I am going to be honest with myself and work on understanding men and how they communicate, interact and desire. I am going to remind myself that they are not Hairy Women and that I can’t communicate with them that way. I will attempt to remind myself that men don’t have the same biological desires and needs as women so. I will pinch myself when I realize I have fallen back into that back ASSWARDS way of thinking.