Customer Service! sheesh!

I should really preference this by saying its really not Customer Service reps that I am talking about as much as food servers and cashiers. But for lack of another title I'm referring to them as CS reps. UGH!!!

So lately I have noticed a few things that when someone does I think REALLY? Like seriously does that even make sense?

I go through the drive through to Mc Donalds from time to time for a large coke and ice cream cone. Now a sane person would think okay hand the customer the coke first then the ice cream cone I mean seriously. NOPE not the geniuses at Mickey D’s now yes I know how smart are you to be working there? Don’t bust it my oldest niece works there and fast food is a demanding job. BUT STILL!! Common sense really! Hand the customer the soda first then the ice cream DUH!!!

Another one that always comes to mind is change! You’re at the store your total is some strange thing like $13.43, you give the cashier a $20 and they give you the change back. What is with putting the bills under the coins and putting the bills in my hand first then the coins on top? It’s silly! How about giving me the coins first so I can put it in this cool little part of my wallet where the change goes and then the bills. WOW!!! What a concept huh? LOL

Another thing…is WAITRESSES. What is it with waitresses and ignoring people who are obviously sitting at a table in YOUR SECTION waiting for you to take our order. DUH! When did it become mandatory to tip bad service? Here’s a tip do you job right or don’t do it at all. SHEESH!!! Really? I choose to come to this restaurant its not like you’re paying me to eat there.

I know I know I need to stop being so negative, but sometimes I think back to the days of yonder when customer service was a pride that those in the industry worked towards. Not like these days where is seems that a CS rep feels you should be thankful that they are even serving you.

Texts from last night.

I joined a new dating site for BBW, and on it I met a guy we'll call him FF for fight or flight...it'll make more sense in a bit. Anyhow he and I had drinks, then lunch one day and finally he attended a BBW meet n greet party I attended last Friday.

Anyhow so I'm at the party and realize that he's a playa, he's like a car crash that you can't look away from. So I offered to take him where ever his friends are at before heading home. See I had to be up early 5:45am early, a few of the girls and I were going to the Glen Ivy Hot springs Spa the next day. So I was leaving the party early, He kept telling me no he was fine his friend was meeting him there at the bar.

I just kept getting this playa vibe from him, especially since he was hitting on the other girls at the party, told my GF Mich that I was possessive and he kept trying to get me to come back to his place when time after time I had told him that I couldn't that night that I had to be up EARLY. lol. He kept trying to get me to go back to his place I could get up early and leave, or take him to mine and I could take him home in the am. I was like NO, are you crazy! I have to be up early on a sat already!!! Just step off and RESPECT that I said no not tonight. So that was the conversations between us at the bar Friday night.

So he tells me to leave and I say I'll wait till his friend gets there, (it was more of me waiting so that he didn't keep hitting on my friend Mich) He tells me its okay you can go. He then asks Mich and I to dance we both turn him down. Anyhow he goes out on the dance floor, while he's out there I ask Mich if she's okay if I leave? She says yes. So while he's on the dance floor I leave.

Sure I probably should have said bye, but I just didn't want to deal with the rest of his begging and shit. So I left.

And here is where the texts from last night start...about 15 mins after I leave I get this.

12:45pm

FF: wtf you should go to my house

Me: I told you not tonight

FF: cum back

FF: whatever you are missing

Me: ummm yeah ok

FF: Get your ass back here now!

Me: Good nite

FF: That’s a order cum back now!

FF: You can come to my house for a few

FF: Babe please cum get me

FF: Get your ass back here please

FF: Hello get your ass back here please

FF: Please cum back???

FF: so you going to leave me hanging don’t ever talk to me again.

Me: I told you Not tonight!! I offered to take you to your friend. You knew I wasn’t going home with you tonight. I told you this time and time again. You obviously can’t respect that so no worries.

FF: Fuck You.

Me: and that does it I’m done, lose my number.

FF You colp

FF: Baby you could have waited for me instead of taking off. I like you.

ME: good nite

FF: If that;s how you roll lose my number. You are very sexy.

FF: fuck you just remember you are sexy.

FF: Lose my number

1:15am:

Me: okay Done. Nite

Keep in mind I'm in bed ASLEEP now...and these are coming in. lol

1:45

FF: Love you come over.

FF: Comr to my house.

2:15am

FF: Hey babybcome ovef

FF: Hey baby please let me know you got home ok

2:$5am

FF: I am home

FF: come over

FF: okay whatever

FF: Please let me know you are getting these texts

3:45am

FF: Hey babe wish you could have some home with me have fun tom getting your spa mwah iam alone missing you

FF: Wuick question why did yyou leave me??

Now keep in mind that I didn't respond after the good nite and that I went to sleep.

I loved how he would tell me FU, but you're sexy. People really should should think before drunk texting.

FU, but you're sexy!!!!! LOL!!!

Really? Really? Really?

So the past week I have been actievely seeking a new FWB. I decided that it would be fun, but I want a FWB with the emphasis on the F part! So I placed an ad on CL, got lots of responses, but I still keep going back to Jon and have attempted to hook up with him the past three nights. He sends me photos of his cock, tells me what he wants to do to me etc. But the moment I'm about to go over there he pulls something like but we only have an hour or come over at 11pm or even worse bring a girl with you. UHHHHH excuse me since when was my pussy not good enough for you?

NOPE...my Dominate side has said enough is enough. Deleted his ass and put him on block, my pussy is quite welcomed by many and if you can't seem to get your shit together to fuck me when I want it then you desire to be stroking your self off night after night.

I eat when I'm bored

I eat when I'm bored. That's not a good way to try and lose weight. I eat when something is bothering me, why can't I just go work out when that's the case? UGH!!! So tonight I ordered from chili's a LARGE coke, side salad, chicken crispers and the peanut butter molten lava cake.

Now REALLY? did I need the lava cake? No and eating half of it I am now feeling sick and wanting to puke it all back up because I'm not helping my weightloss delimina at all, by showing the boredom with some nasty lava cake. UGH!!!

So tomorrow is a day of nothing planned...BUT I have so much stuff to do around my house, the thing is I know myself, I'll sit on the couch, watch tv and try to find some sort of interaction with people via the internet. WHY? Why not clean the closet, put the boxes in storage, finish painting the bedroom furniture, sew some pillows, make dinner and maybe (well I really should do this) WORKOUT! It doesn't cost me anything to go work out, I already pay the membership fees every month so why am I not going? UGH!!! I seriously need to get back to the gym!

Tomorrow I am going....I am going to dedicate myself to the treadmill this week for at least a half hour! I can do that...little steps are good right. And cook this week...cook...so when I get paid weds, I'll be able to get my vitamins and some groceries!!! YA!!!

So I admit it...I eat when I'm bored, and that probably why my ass if well a bit excessive to say it nicely!

Tick Tock Tick Tock

My Biological clock is ticking…and has been strongly lately. Why? I have always just accepted that I will remain childless my life but lately I have been thinking all sorts of wild things. From getting pregnant by yumminess and being a single mom, to adopting, to being a foster parent. For some reason the need to have a child in my life lately has gotten so strong that sometimes it hurts. What is going on with me?

I’ve actually woken up the past few mornings with a sickly stomach, and this morning though wait am I pregnant? Wouldn’t that mean I would have to be having sex? Well okay let me rephrase that cause ya know I’m having sex. Wouldn’t I need to be having sex with someone and not using a. a condom or b. they have been fixed? Just saying I think there has to be some mix of something from a male to get pregnant. *laughs*

Maybe I am just at the ripe old age of 38 that I am hearing that tick tock tick tock STRONGLY!!! That I am causing my own upset morning stomach, or maybe its that I am working on my PCOS and health that the thought of losing weight is so overwhelming that sometimes I don’t know what to do with myself. Or maybe and this is such a 16 and pregnant thought/moment, maybe I just think that a baby would love me unconditionally…well at least till it’s a teenager. *smiles*

Whatever it is…the tick tock tick tock is driving me a bit batty, could someone please pull the plug on the grandfather clock already?

I don't stock pile Bi women!

Why is it that when a guy finds out that I am Bi sexual the first thing his mind goes to is a three some, and assumes that I just know all these Bi women who would JUMP to have a sexual experience with them.

UHHH NO! it doesn't work that way. I don't have stock pile of bi women, and even if I did most bi women are one men type of women and don't want to be involved in three somes I don't disagree with them.

A bi woman's relationship is deeper at least in my experience and isn't like the swingers world. *sighs* So no my closet is not my own personal stock pile of bi women willing to fuck you. Sheesh!

How does one

M is back in the picture and how do I just let him go? I told him about T and what happened and how guilty I felt about the entire situation. I feel even worse now for telling him that, but I have every right to date anyone I want and sleep with them if I really want to, we aren't together. So if I'm free to do this, why oh why do I feel guilty about it?

I feel a bit of M opening up to me, but at the same time I feel like he's still so scared and I don't mean anything. *sighs*