When you stop looking it will come.

I stopped looking for dates a few months ago, well I should say I stopped looking for my soul mate. I still went on dates here and there not many; I stopped sleeping with men, and stopped looking for the one. I have kept the mind open for my soul mate, knowing he was out there somewhere. I kept my focus on what I am looking for in life and kept in mind and soul when the desire to have sex with someone randomly, I would think to myself would I be sleeping with this man if I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I would be meeting my soul mate in the next 72 hours? I always answered no.

Don’t get me wrong I did have a slip here and there, the needs of the body after all. But for the most part I have worked at staying true to myself. I have been working on understanding men, communication, desire, respect, love for all men, all women. It’s been such an amazing journey and so enlightening really.

With the passing of my Grams I have held in my soul the reminder daily that time is precious and to not waste it on the unnecessaries of life. To stay positive, loving, understanding and open to how not only I’m affecting others around me but how others are affecting me.

So a few weeks ago I was contacted via a dating site belong to from a man that dated a former friend of mine. They dated about 2 years, ago and when they were together the 3 of us hung out a lot. I had always thought he was attractive, *smiles*

Saturday he accompanied me to my wine group’s holiday party. We had a fabulous time; he was a perfect gentleman, very sweet, caring, considerate and made sure we got home safely. He is amazing to talk to, funny, charming, sincere, and a good friend. Sunday evening he came over and watched a movie with J and I. It was the perfect ending to a really busy weekend.

I wake up to sweet texts from him. Nothing to mushy or sappy, just him being him and me being me, when I’m around him it feels easy, sweet and safe. I smile when I think about him, and wonder what it will be like to sleep with him, hold his hand again, talk to him again. I get excited to see him again and wonder what new wonders I’ll learn about him and myself.

They have always said that when you stop looking it will come, I am starting to be a true believer.