A few weeks ago I put myself out there again for Yumminess I asked him to attend a holiday party with me this weekend. I asked in plenty of time, expressed what he would be providing for me, how it would make me happy and all of that. At first he was positive and stated he was tentatively going, just needed to work out arrangements for his Daughter.
But as the past 2 weeks have passed he’s talked himself out of it once again, he’s allowed his fear, his thoughts that he knows what is best for me to change his mind. To say that he can’t provide this for me. *sighs*
I respect him, and his honesty, I just wonder sometimes how long do you wait? How often do you put yourself out there? WHEN will he realize what I realize? Him of all people why is it that he is so easily able to waste precious precious time being alone and unhappy.
I really have no idea what keeps me thinking something will change with him. What made me think that this new way of understanding men, this new way of communicating with them, this new strength to respect them and to see them in a new light would somehow change things between him and I. Why I would even think that it ever will change.
Make sure you have shoes one when you take that first step, you never know how sharp the rocks of rejection can be.
But as the past 2 weeks have passed he’s talked himself out of it once again, he’s allowed his fear, his thoughts that he knows what is best for me to change his mind. To say that he can’t provide this for me. *sighs*
I respect him, and his honesty, I just wonder sometimes how long do you wait? How often do you put yourself out there? WHEN will he realize what I realize? Him of all people why is it that he is so easily able to waste precious precious time being alone and unhappy.
I really have no idea what keeps me thinking something will change with him. What made me think that this new way of understanding men, this new way of communicating with them, this new strength to respect them and to see them in a new light would somehow change things between him and I. Why I would even think that it ever will change.
Make sure you have shoes one when you take that first step, you never know how sharp the rocks of rejection can be.
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