Disconnected from...well it seems life and everyone in it.

Lately I've had this strange feeling of feeling disconnected from well everyone and life it self. I feel like my woman's group no longer needs me, that I'm not appreciated, or whatever the correct word is. Just feeling lost like I haven nothing in common or that no one cares. I know logically in the back of my brain that this is not true, I know that they do, but something has changed. 

I use to feel really close to K&A, but things have changed they don't text me anymore, they don't check on me or anything its like they've meet the others in the group and venture off and do things together. *sighs* don't get me wrong I'm happy about that, its exactly what I created the group for, but I'm feeling disconnected, out of the group and just unhappy. 

So much has gone on in my life since I last wrote. I turned 40, Buttercup threw me a wonderful day of surprises and gifts. She got all the girls together to buy me a charm necklace from Tiffany's I finally got my blue box!!! Even that day though when I should have been so excited and happy I was a bit po'd at the girls in my group. Its like they all had other things going on that day and I don't know I guess with all I do for others it would have just been nice to once have a day where I was focused on. Is that me being selfish? That's the part I try to remind myself of. 

I moved...I moved on my actual birthday, to an awesome 2 bedroom yummy condo. About 2 miles from my old place but so much more space, positive energy, light and room to group emotionally, physically and mentally. I love it. I'm still getting stuff in place but its coming together little by little. Buttercup is moving in at the end of the month, at first I didn't think I wanted her to but the more I thought about it the more I realized I did. 

So I'm out of sorts with myself and others around me. I feel disconnected from those I use to feel close to, angry really. Buttercup says to tell them but I don't want to...I want to throw a tantrum and I want them to check on me I don't have the energy to get someone to care about me. so instead i guess I'm harboring the anger which is not good cause it closes doors and holds the energy in. 

With so much going on how do I get past the disconnected feeling? How do I get my life back? How do I shake this all?