Same time every year

Its almost that day again. 
It comes every year like the fog rolling on a dark night. 
Sometimes I push it away till the very end,
but it always comes every year, the same time, same day, same pain. 

18 years this time.
One would think it would get easier, as each one passes by.
Your mark on the world such a short moment, 
a blimp in the universe 
a hold on my heart forever, 
18 years ago. 

Its almost that day again, 
it comes around each year the same time, same day, same pain.