So this shouldn’t bother me but it does. For the past year
my brother has been talking about coming down to SD for the holidays. I’ve been
really excited about seeing him and finally having a family holiday together
again. Well last night my mum tells me they aren’t going to be here for
Christmas. They are going to go up to Washington State for 3 months. I was so
pissed; I didn’t hold back, I even said I thought she was being selfish. She
then comes back on me saying well it’s a lot of work and yadda yadda yadda, are
you going to come over and help? FUCK!!! I work! Everyone around me wants me to
do everything and all I want to do is have Christmas with my family. I felt
awful about saying to her that I thought they were being selfish because it had
been talked about for a year, but it’s truly how I feel, but then I felt
selfish about saying that and feeling selfish myself.
The sucky thing is that then she says well we don’t know
because it depends on the construction and I’m all I’m not going to wait on
that and last minute change plans. No if you aren’t having Christmas here than
I’ll make other plans. I told K today
and he said yep just another example of your mom being an ass and not wanting
to do anything that will inconvenience her. It’s so true; she seriously doesn’t
want to and doesn’t think about anyone else’s feelings. She’s an asshat.
So here I am feeling guilty over telling her she being
selfish and feeling bad because saying that makes me look selfish, at the same
time so mad at her right now that I don’t want to have anything to do with her.
We’ll figure Christmas out. We’ll do something at the house
invite Puppy and A over, maybe a lunch game night or something. It’ll be fine
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