People's Opinions don't always have to matter

We’re getting separated; divorce is just around the corner. So what do I do with this? It seems so strange to be realizing that in 4 more days my stuff will no longer be at his mom’s house, that lil by lil we are separating our lives. How could I have been so wrong about everything 2 years ago? How I could I have not seen that nothing would change?

I picked up mum from the airport yesterday, she’s home to pack up the house and get it ready to be sold. Seems so strange that my parents aren’t going to just be up the freeway.  I’ll be honest I’m pretty sad they are moving, but also know that its for the best for them.  I just always thought I would be the one to take care of them, as they got older not my brother. Alas such is life.

Mum decided I needed to know their opinion on the soon to be ex hubs last night. It was pretty harsh and although I agree with a lot of what she said. It was still hard to hear. My mind has been spinning about all the decisions I made the past few years, about what I could have done differently, what I should have done, the thing is if I continue to dwell on the negative of all of this I miss the positives and the beautiful things that have come out of it.

I had a beautiful relationship with a man that taught me a million different things over the past 4 years.

I loved a man that loved me the best way he could, and protected me every chance he could.

I had a man that supported me in my endeavors and held my hand when they didn’t succeed.

I meet a man that loved road trips as much as I do. A man who made me laugh, and smile event when I didn’t want to.

I met someone who I hope I helped heal from past pains and realize he deserves to be happy and loved.

Although he may no longer be a main part of my life going forward, he has and always will have a part of my heart. He has helped me find my current path, one that lead me to A, and helped me become healthier physically, stronger mentally, and build a shield against the community. 

So enough of the negative, its time to move forward to focus on the good and know that people are going to have their opinions and its okay, the only thing that matters now is how we react to it, treat each other and find our happiness apart.