I met the AWESOME Jen Lancaster!!!

So this evening my girlie group and I met the AWESOME Jen Lancaster. I've enjoyed Jen's books and found then funny and enlightening. They have helped me to want to go back to Weight watchers and to losing weight. BUT it wasn't until hearing her speak tonight that I actually can say that I have a girl crush on her.

I've seen myself in so many of her books, but tonight I totally saw her living my life just in a different body, place and married. *smiles* Okay so not totally my life but close enough. She is funny, real and has become actually quite an inspiration to me. So I asked her this evening how does she keep from censoring herself while blogging. She said that you have to write for yourself and push through it. That those reading your blog will know and just be yourself and be truthful.

So here I am blogging and going to be open honest and not censor myself even though I know that people I know are reading you my dear blog, regardless all I can be is me and hope to be a by product of Jen in the future!!!

Squeeeelllll....I met Jen Lancaster!!!

I can hang shelves!

So a few months back I realized that I didn't really like the colors in my bedroom and wanted to re-decorate. I found an awesome bedspread set that I wanted and have gone from there. Its a pretty white spread with black thin outlined flowers and purple, teal, orange, fuchsia flowers. Its really pretty and has my favorite colors.

So one of the things I wanted to do was hang some hanging shelves in my bedroom above my bed. Well I hung them up with the hardware that came with it and they wouldn't sit right. I was so frustrated and irritated I didn't know what to do. So today I went to the hardware store and bought some decorative L brackets. I asked M to come help me but of course he was busy and his word from the day before that he would help meant nothing. SO!!! I hung them up myself. I pulled my electric drill out, level and go to work, once again I was reminded that I can do things myself and don't need a man to do it! It feels awesome to be able to do things for myself and not need a man to do it. Would it be nice if there was a man to do it? SURE! but there's not and I can do it myself.

Three more days and the girls and I leave for Vegas! I'm so excited, its going to be awesome!!! my favorite 5 girlies partying up and celebrating GP's 1st anniversary. It is going to be awesome!!! lots of drinking, laughter, craziness and hopefully no tigers in the bathroom. :)

Till then I can hang shelves and they are LEVEL!!!

I want her as my new BFF

Most of the time when I watch TV and especially reality TV I think to myself YEAH RIGHT! but watching Bethany Frankel's new show and tonight the season finale I think to myself RIGHT ON GIRL! She had the mind set, the struggles, the the determination and the strength to work towards a passion, goal and dream that many people, mostly men told her NO, now she is a successful business woman, a loving wife, mother and a positive role model for our young girls these days. Sure she is a little flaky and neurotic at times but really who isn't? She is dealing and working on her personal issues and sharing them with the world. Its amazing to me and I truly want to say that I want to be her BFF! Thank you Bethany for standing by your passions and succeeding.

He's Married!

Yep T is in fact married!!!
I started to have some feelings last week that something was off when I hadn't heard from him and did a little research, well I found out he had been placing ads for awhile, that he had in fact meet someone and slept with them just the week before we went out and then when he finally did contact me I flat out asked him and he said yes I'm married and my wife found out about you.

I trust my gut feelings a lot of times and I know when things are off so when I started having those feelings again about something on Monday and I finally realize that it was about him I knew he was married. So its back to the drawing board for dating.

Positive side though that Shannon and I finally met. We had lunch on Sat, and have plans for dinner on Tues. He's really nice and things seem to be going well. So we'll see.

I'm off to bed early tonight it was a buys weekend and an even busier day.

I thought I would have heard.

So my date on Thursday with T went amazingly well. I defiantly will be seeing him again or so I thought that evening as I drove away. Friday he had surgery which I knew about and knew he would probably be in pain this weekend and sleeping. But its now Monday and I still haven’t heard a peep from him since Friday afternoon telling me he had surgery. Nothing! Not a peep and I’m sorta reeling trying not to think the worse (like is he still married) I know he’s probably just dooped up and will contact me when he gets back to work tomorrow but still it would have been nice to hear from him.

I did hear from M this weekend, some of it my fault due to the drunk texting of Friday and some was him on Saturday. I don’t know why I can’t seem to get this guy out of my head. I was thinking its because he is comfortable and I know him, but shouldn’t’ that also want to make me SMILE? All it does to me these days is make me want to bash my head into the wall and scream “WHY”!!!!

Boy drama again….UGH!!! On a brighter note 18 days and counting till the girlies and I venture off to Vegas for our Girls weekend. I am so excited and stressed a bit about money. It will be a fun weekend and I’m excited about it! YEAH!!!

So I just have to get through the next 18 days then I’ll be soaking up the rays of Vegas, the booze, and not dwelling on who I would have heard from or not, I’ll be with the girlies!

Red Red Wine!

Omgoodness last night I drank WAYYYYY too much of that delicious wonderful beverage called Red wine. My GF’s and I had a fun evening of food, watching the Royal Wedding, and LOTS of wine! So much so that I ended up drunk texting M and telling him something’s that in the morning day light I’m kicking my own ass about. *shaking head*

The night was fun and today I am yet again learning what I learn every time I eat too much, that Red Red wine leaves a rough rough hangover. Woke up this am with the room spinning and my stomach churning, I haven’t barfed that much in I don’t know long, and let me tell you red wine barf is never fun. *ugh*

So today I am recovering, I am up showered and waiting for my beautiful friend to come over and get me so I can pick up my car. Yes I was smart and didn’t drive home, no DUI for me.

Picking up a hung over body and attempting to do damage control from the drunk texting last night….red red wine the day after you’re not so sweet.

I'm having Ice Cream!

I haven’t been this excited about ice cream since I found out about the rocket pop. So T and I are meeting for ice cream this evening.

Originally we had dinner and a movie planed, but last minute this morning his boss came in informing him of an officer’s event he had to attend this evening. I was disappoint when he told me, but then he asked almost begged to come to my town and have ice cream with me, I kept asking why he’d want to do that, till my inner voice screamed at me and said “DUMMY this guy wants to meet you! He is doing everything you have wanted M or yumminess to do and you’re asking why?” Just say OK and meet him.

So ice cream tonight, I’m so excited. Could this finally be someone that I click with? Someone who sees the same things I do in life, someone who sees how amazing I really am? As excited as I am, not allowing myself to get my hopes to high because that fall when things are all that is really FAR down there!

Still I’m HAVING ICE CREAM tonight, with a real man, I’m as excited as a child on Christmas morning!!! Ice Cream Ice Cream let’s all SCREAM for ICE CREAM!