Bootcamp is kicking my booty.

So I have 2 weeks left in the 90 day challenge. So far I've lost 30 lbs and would love to lose 15 more by the end of the challenge, I knew in order to do that I would need to pump up my game. I already eat pretty healthy I just needed to add the exercise in. So last week I purchased an Groupon for a month of unlimited bootcamp. Last week J and I went to my first one, and I went to my second tonight. I'm planning on 4 bootcamps a week for the month and then I'll see what I want to do after that. Its a tough workout, but I get through it and feel awesome afterwards. I know I'm going to sleep really well tonight.

G and I are officially BF/GF. We talked last night and he asked me, it was cute and sweet. Its really the first healthy solid relationship I've been in, in a long time. We're honest, open and respectful of each others lives. We can talk, laugh and be ourselves, its a nice feeling. We're going away for the weekend next month, to go visit my cousin who will be visiting Anaheim, and then we're gonna visit the tolerance museum which I have been wanting to do for a long time. I'm totally excited. It should be a fun weekend.

Trying not to let having a relationship/BF intrude on my goals and path. Not only my weight loss goals, but not letting the relationship consume my life. I've been preaching for the past few years the importance of having your own lives separate but together when in a relationship so now is the true test.

Kicking my booty into shape, while balancing my soul for the long term.

Well this is a change...for the good.

I'm in a relationship!!!

I really thought we weren't compatible at first but the more we spent time together, talked, laughed and took the time to get to know each other, the more that I saw the relationship building not based on sex or that physical chemistry, but genuine respect and friendship.

We spent the day yesterday with his beautiful 3 year old twin boys. It was a nice day just hanging out, bonding with the boys, and seeing him in his eliminate. It was also the first time that we were touchy feely at all. It was a nice day/evening.

Today's his birthday and he's with his family, its strange to feel like I miss him already but I sense that. I'm not going to let myself slip on my goals or my life just because I'm in a relationship now, that's exactly why I started GP to have a place for women to have healthy life long friendships without sacrificing their relationships and them selves.

Its a scary change from being single and only thinking about myself and now I have to think about someone else before making plans. At the same time its nice to have someone to talk to, confide in about my day, and just have someone to snuggle with. *blushes* the snuggling is the best part.

Its quite a change....praying for the best.

Oh the perials of online dating.

Its been a few days since I wrote and so many things I should of, could of, or would have written about if I would have had the time. Scratch that if I would have made the time, alas I let my everyday life take over.

Its MARCH already and the year seems to be flying by. The 90 day weight loss challenge is wrapping up and so far I've lost 31 lbs. YEAH me!! Still have 50 to reach what my goal was for the year but I'm doing it. I joined a woman's boot camp with J and we're going twice a week at 5:30 am. UGH!!! I already feel it and can see that I have to step it up in order to lose the rest of my goal before Australia.

Speaking of Australia, I'm trying not to freak out but I am sorta, mostly over money. I don't know how I'm going to raise the funds for my portion of the trip. UGH!!! Sell myself or a liver or something? Trust in my higher power and it will happen. For now just enjoy the journey that I'm on to the trip, its been so much fun already. Getting the information from my parents, talking to my auntie about it and just getting excited. Its truly a once in a lifetime trip .

Life is good. Sorta seeing someone not sure where its going but he is really nice seems to be into me and we're taking it slow. 4 dates and still no kiss. This weekend is his birthday and I'm going to meet his twin boys for the first time. A little nervous but what little boy doesn't like me? I can't think of any, my nephew thinks I'm a rockstar after all. *giggles* Did I tell you how much I adore and love my nephew (well all my nieces also) but my nephew is one awesome little boy. during our recent "birthday date" to the USS Midway, I couldn't help but marvel on how amazing he truly is, such a funny, kind, polite little gentleman.

I've been thinking about things everyday. I come up with ideas on what to write but never seem to get them on paper. I'd really like to write a book one day. But are my ramblings enough? Would someone really read about my online dating trials? Let's see cause I have a dozy for you that just occurred.

I replied to a CL ad the other day. A guy was looking for a BBW to go with him to a party this weekend. I replied we emailed back and forth, then we started texting, etc. Well unfortunately I wasn't going to be able to attend the party because of prior plans with family the same night. But we made plans to meet for a late night drink after I was done. We texted for a few days, getting to know each other, we seemed on the same path, looking for a FWB with the possibility of more. So last night we are texting and something didn't sit right with me so I decided to see if I could find him on Facebook.

Now let me back up a bit here, those of you that cheat, lie or manipulate a situation understand this women have gut feelings and the smart ones will follow until they are settled down. That's me, so if you're going to lie, cheat or try to manipulate me make sure your game is TIGHT or I'm gonna find the crack in it. A Facebook is a HUGE crack of peoples. Cracks me up everytime I catch a liar.

So I searched Facebook and SURE enough he has a page. The worse thing of it all is the first picture he sent me of himself was the one he had on his profile, just cropped the GF/fiancee out. He's not married I will give him credit on that one, but here's the kicker, his GF just had HIS first born daughter less than a month ago. ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? Seriously? You're out scoping CL's for women and your GF just had your child? EWWWW.

So I called him out on it. I haven't decided if I'm going to contact the GF, if it was me I would want to know, but I still haven't decided on that yet. He tried to tell me that he had no plans on meeting me, that he was just joshing on CL, fucking with the flakes, etc. That I turned out to be a genuine person and he's sorry he lead me on. I call BS, you know damn well if I hadn't of said anything to him about finding out about his life he would have met me and tried to sleep with me. It was sorta funny to watch the texts come in begging me to not say anything and how she would know that I was lying, that I would just be causing undue harm, etc etc. Trying to back pedal and manipulate the situation. *rolling eyes*

Why not be honest and upfront about your life? Respect a person and let them decide if it is something they are okay with. I'd be much more understanding and open to a man saying hey I'm not getting any at home, or I just want something different, then a man telling me what he thinks I want to hear to get into my panties. I'm not a saint, (don't laugh) I might be sweet, but I'm no saint, I've had affairs with married men before, I'll admit it. The difference is they have all been open honest upfront and set the boundaries of the relationship and no it was not always all about sex. In fact one man I saw for almost 2 years we never had sex, or even kissed, we would go to dinner and talk for hours on end. His wife and him had amazing sex, that's not what he needed he realized, it was someone to build his ego, let him talk and just banter with him. We are still friends but eventually he built up enough courage to tell her what he needed and they went to counseling and are HAPPY!! So yes the truth and honesty will go a lot further than manipulation and lies.

End of rant. *smiles* I've decided I'm going to start another blog, but this one will be all about my photography. I really do love taking photos and think I'm pretty darn good at it so I decided I want to share it with the world, the best way is to start a blog and that's what I'm going to do. I'll let you know the link and how it's going in the next few days, till then enjoy the day!

Who picks up the bill?

Recently I saw and episode of when I met your mother, or some sitcom like that. Anyhow one of the male characters was trying to decide between two women he was dating, one of the things he was determining over was who reached for the bill at dinner. Not if they paid, but that they reached for the bill. It got me thinking, what is the PC thing for a woman to do these days?

Matchmakers tell women to let men be men. That they pay, plan the date, etc. Till you're in a committed relationship. Pax Programs say to give men ideas, go to thier area of town so they feel more comfortable and let them be the men. Feminists say no men should come to you, you pay the bill, and you take charge. So it gets confusing for a woman in the dating world as to what to do.

Does it matter on who asked who? If its casual? Do you offer to pay 1/2, all, reach for the check and pray that he takes it from you? What? It really is a very akward situation to dating if you ask me.

And If I don't reach for the bill will that be the end of whatever might be building between us? What if I really don't have any money to pay for it, should I volunteer to do the dishes? *pulling hair out* UGH!!! Dating is so difficult sometimes!

Relish the joy ness

Sometimes you meet someone who truly is amazing and you realize in a second that all you have is that one moment with them.

This past weekend I was blessed with a wonderfully sweet and amazing few moments with a truly sweet and caring man. He showed me that there are men out there that think I am beautiful, sexy, vibrant and intelligent without wanting to get in my panties. It was a truly wonderful experience that I will hold in my heart and spirit.

Tomorrow’s Valentines Day and I yet again have no valentine. I thought I might be sad about it. But actually I’m celebrating my singleness. The girls and I are going to dinner and a movie. It’ll be fun and well none of that mushy lovey dovey stuff. Stuff that forces men to be outside of their comfort zones and perform as though they are a trained monkey. Don’t get me wrong I enjoy flowers delivered to me at work, but I want to know its what they want to do and not MADE to do it because there is a date on the calendar.

Movie oh I have no idea what number is down. I saw Hugo in 3D yesterday and it was cute, not extraordinary but cute. I don’t really understand or get how movies get nominated for best Oscar picture because they are all so different in categories, content and meanings. It would truly be hard. I have 3 more to watch and then I’ll be done with the OSCAR movies!!! Thank heavens the last 3 are on DVD.

Did I tell you that I have lost 25 lbs? I have since the 1st of the year. It’s not a TON I know this but it’s enough that I feel it already in my body and attitude. I also know that it’s affected my sex drive because I seem to want to have sex again all the time. GRRRR

My healing card today said to A cheerful expression brings joy to the heart, and good news gives health to the bones. This year I have worked toward positive ness more than ever and I think that is what has gotten me where I am today…realishing in joyfulness.

Irish Men, Movies and more!

So the Irish man and I are no longer. Short lived huh? He turned into a really mean evil person, not what I want in my life. It got really painful yesterday with his harassment on text. Mean things calling me substandard, a loser, etc. I got really depressed over it all last night. Slept and slept and slept. This morning I woke up and said it’s a new day and this jerk is not going to affect another day of my life. It’s been an AMAZING DAY!!

50/50 Challenge update.

Rented three movies over the weekend. The Debt which was a total bore in my opinion. Courageous which the ending to me was the best part and the testing of their vow. Then Friends with Benefits, that was HILARIOUS although predictable. So that’s 10,11 & 12 down. 38 more movies to go. And 49 more books. LOL

Movie number...9? Irish men, and Mercy!

Incredibly Loud Extremely Close one of the best pictures nominated for an Oscar and movie number….in the 50/50 challenge. I actually liked the movie quite a bit. I didn’t know what to expect from the previews and reviews I heard elsewhere, so I went into it with an open mind. And I was blown away; it was a great movie, awesome story line and the main character the young boy, played the part outstandingly. I didn’t cry but it did make me think and was a reminder of the tragedy of 9/11 and what it did to people, families, friends, it was a reminder to not forget or to take life for granted. It was a good movie.

I met an Irish man last night, he’s 39, no kids, divorced, his mum passed away a few months ago. He’s funny, intelligent, strong, and makes me smile. We have a lot of similar interests and goals in life. I’m swooning a bit over meeting him and where this is going. We have out first official date Friday so we will see. *smiles* oh and he has the sexiest Irish accent.

Life is good. I’m working out, balancing life, and realizing that I need to be more merciful towards others if I expect the same in return. It’s a hard one, but a vital one to a positive healthy life.