Oh the perials of online dating.

Its been a few days since I wrote and so many things I should of, could of, or would have written about if I would have had the time. Scratch that if I would have made the time, alas I let my everyday life take over.

Its MARCH already and the year seems to be flying by. The 90 day weight loss challenge is wrapping up and so far I've lost 31 lbs. YEAH me!! Still have 50 to reach what my goal was for the year but I'm doing it. I joined a woman's boot camp with J and we're going twice a week at 5:30 am. UGH!!! I already feel it and can see that I have to step it up in order to lose the rest of my goal before Australia.

Speaking of Australia, I'm trying not to freak out but I am sorta, mostly over money. I don't know how I'm going to raise the funds for my portion of the trip. UGH!!! Sell myself or a liver or something? Trust in my higher power and it will happen. For now just enjoy the journey that I'm on to the trip, its been so much fun already. Getting the information from my parents, talking to my auntie about it and just getting excited. Its truly a once in a lifetime trip .

Life is good. Sorta seeing someone not sure where its going but he is really nice seems to be into me and we're taking it slow. 4 dates and still no kiss. This weekend is his birthday and I'm going to meet his twin boys for the first time. A little nervous but what little boy doesn't like me? I can't think of any, my nephew thinks I'm a rockstar after all. *giggles* Did I tell you how much I adore and love my nephew (well all my nieces also) but my nephew is one awesome little boy. during our recent "birthday date" to the USS Midway, I couldn't help but marvel on how amazing he truly is, such a funny, kind, polite little gentleman.

I've been thinking about things everyday. I come up with ideas on what to write but never seem to get them on paper. I'd really like to write a book one day. But are my ramblings enough? Would someone really read about my online dating trials? Let's see cause I have a dozy for you that just occurred.

I replied to a CL ad the other day. A guy was looking for a BBW to go with him to a party this weekend. I replied we emailed back and forth, then we started texting, etc. Well unfortunately I wasn't going to be able to attend the party because of prior plans with family the same night. But we made plans to meet for a late night drink after I was done. We texted for a few days, getting to know each other, we seemed on the same path, looking for a FWB with the possibility of more. So last night we are texting and something didn't sit right with me so I decided to see if I could find him on Facebook.

Now let me back up a bit here, those of you that cheat, lie or manipulate a situation understand this women have gut feelings and the smart ones will follow until they are settled down. That's me, so if you're going to lie, cheat or try to manipulate me make sure your game is TIGHT or I'm gonna find the crack in it. A Facebook is a HUGE crack of peoples. Cracks me up everytime I catch a liar.

So I searched Facebook and SURE enough he has a page. The worse thing of it all is the first picture he sent me of himself was the one he had on his profile, just cropped the GF/fiancee out. He's not married I will give him credit on that one, but here's the kicker, his GF just had HIS first born daughter less than a month ago. ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? Seriously? You're out scoping CL's for women and your GF just had your child? EWWWW.

So I called him out on it. I haven't decided if I'm going to contact the GF, if it was me I would want to know, but I still haven't decided on that yet. He tried to tell me that he had no plans on meeting me, that he was just joshing on CL, fucking with the flakes, etc. That I turned out to be a genuine person and he's sorry he lead me on. I call BS, you know damn well if I hadn't of said anything to him about finding out about his life he would have met me and tried to sleep with me. It was sorta funny to watch the texts come in begging me to not say anything and how she would know that I was lying, that I would just be causing undue harm, etc etc. Trying to back pedal and manipulate the situation. *rolling eyes*

Why not be honest and upfront about your life? Respect a person and let them decide if it is something they are okay with. I'd be much more understanding and open to a man saying hey I'm not getting any at home, or I just want something different, then a man telling me what he thinks I want to hear to get into my panties. I'm not a saint, (don't laugh) I might be sweet, but I'm no saint, I've had affairs with married men before, I'll admit it. The difference is they have all been open honest upfront and set the boundaries of the relationship and no it was not always all about sex. In fact one man I saw for almost 2 years we never had sex, or even kissed, we would go to dinner and talk for hours on end. His wife and him had amazing sex, that's not what he needed he realized, it was someone to build his ego, let him talk and just banter with him. We are still friends but eventually he built up enough courage to tell her what he needed and they went to counseling and are HAPPY!! So yes the truth and honesty will go a lot further than manipulation and lies.

End of rant. *smiles* I've decided I'm going to start another blog, but this one will be all about my photography. I really do love taking photos and think I'm pretty darn good at it so I decided I want to share it with the world, the best way is to start a blog and that's what I'm going to do. I'll let you know the link and how it's going in the next few days, till then enjoy the day!