Monday, July 12, 2010

So I guess this is so long.

Ever realize how the word Good Bye seems so final. We try to shorten it with bye, but it still seems so FINAL, especially when you are walking away from a friendship or a relationship that once might have been. Good Bye just seems so ending of something, like at a funeral, you're burying it 6 feet under to never have it surface again.

Why don't people say talk to you later, see you later, or so long, those seem like there is at least a chance that you will talk again. Not the FINALNESS of Good bye. How about till next time, or on the flip side? *smiles* something more positive. There is so much finalness to life as it is, to say GOOD BYE just seems to be something we could control.

I suppose I am thinking a lot again. Realizing that time alone does that to me, taking the time to feel my feelings. To understand the reasoning behind the anger, the hurt, the tears. Sometimes I realize things pretty quickly, other times I have to realize them over and over and over before I truly realize the answer or solution.

I'm been thinking a lot about that song, make new friends but keep the old. Not sure why but its been in my mind a lot. Makes me wonder what type of friend I am.

I realized and learned many years ago when I was addicted to an online chat room, that those weren't really friends. Friends are those people you share yourself with physically, mentally, and emotionally. They are the people in real life that you go to the movies with, watch the waves of the ocean, hold their hand over a broken heart.

I suppose as I try to understand myself and those relationships around me, the more I define those relationships in my life and move away from those that are not healthy, or happy.

Does it make me sad? Sure, I remind myself though......that This too shall pass.....after all it's not a Good bye, but a so long for now.

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