They need to stay in the past.

One of my goals this year was to not contact past lovers, well I have failed that BIG time! I’ve been in contacted with M & Yummines. *frown* I added G to that list a month ago but we have been in contacted via text almost every other day.

Today he texts me saying that he can only control himself and that he wasn’t going to be talking to me anymore (uhh we don’t talk we text) and that he can’t handle my freak outs or the hot and cold. That I’m an nice girl but what I said about him spending time with his family last week pissed him off. *rolls eyes* uhhhh He’s the one in March who told me his family controls his entire life and that he wanted to break away from them. He works with them all and then spends almost every spare minute with them. I’m not sure how healthy that is, I don’t know I’m working at not judging, but when you tell me that you want to break away from someone then blame me for pointing out that you’re spending a lot of time with them, something is really wrong. Right now I’m in the no BS mode, I really don’t care if he wants nothing to do with me GREAT!!! Awesome one more weed to not have to continually put weed spray on.

M & Yumminess, I need to start to feel that same way about. *sighs* Nothing good comes of going back to those from your past, the same issues are there and the same reactions. So leave the past in the past and move on.

Speed Dating

So I went to speed dating last night. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. There were 12 guys and 12 women, 5 min increments to talk. Everyone was really really nice, and there were about 4 that I could see myself going on a date with. So 4 that I said yes to and 2 have said yes back. Now comes the part of patience, do I wait for them to email me or do I email them and say it was nice meeting them last night? I know that Allison A says in her programs to wait for the guy to come for you, to not chase them and that they will be the hunters. The thing is most of the guys that were there last night are computer guys and you know computer guys they are shy quiet and not always up on the etiquette of dating. *sighs* so what to do what to do. 

Migraines are back today. UGH!!! I need to drink more water and exercise. But my brain is so hurting right now that I don't want to go outside in the bright lights. I don't want to do much of anything and I have a lot of things I need to do around the house. Especially cleaning...UGH! It seems like the cleaning never gets done in the house. 

I saw this on a friends Facebook today and it hit me...don't rush it! 

If I can get through 12, 5 min dates, I can deal with anything that comes my way.

I got a new job!!!

Yep, me! I got a new job. I actually thought I would stay at my current job a lot longer but I see the writing on the wall and after a SECOND hour cut in four years, I thought it was time to start looking. It was perfect timing, I sent my resume in for a construction company here in the east county, (which is funny because I thought for a moment it might be for my company) and how they called about two weeks ago for an interview. It went amazingly well and I got called in for a second interview this week, with the entire office and that went well. I pretty much thought I had it in the bag and was expecting a call the next day. But no call, I was starting to doubt myself and resigned that I would move on bigger and better. The next morning the phone rang and I was offered the job, AWESOME growth potential, five bucks more and hour, full time, benefits, and not having to stress about things anymore. Its a bittersweet accomplishment, excited for the new adventure, yet very sad to be leaving my current position and the family I have come to love and respect over the past four years. I'm looking at the positive and not going to let myself get to sad about it all. My last day is actually on my birthday, it will be a great day. 

I ran/walked 2 miles in 29.20 minutes in the Mission Thin Possible's first challenge this past Monday. It was an amazing evening, and lots and lots of fun. I can't wait to see how my time changes in 11 weeks when we do it again. 

Tonight I am venturing out to try speed dating. I'm extremely nervous as it feels like going out on ten first dates all on the same night. Well to be truthful isn't that what it is? you think can I really be myself in a few mins? Can you be rejected by ten men in one night and not have your ego affected? Alas I'm doing it for fun and if I can't have fun what's the point in living? 

Life is good, even better now with a new job, working on a new body, and working on the soul...its a good place. Just be honest and positive and things will fall into place.

War stories of first dates

So last night I went on a first date with a guy I had met on line about a month ago. For the last month he'd been trying to get me to come over to his house to "hang out" to which I kept turning him down. I told him to ask me out. Well he told me that it would have to wait till after the 1st when he got paid. So I said okay, it gave us time to talk and get to know each other.

The 1st came and we decided to go out on Cinco de mayo. I asked what he wanted to do and he suggested a movie, I suggested a Mexican dinner because well it was Cinco de mayo and you can't talk in a movie. So we decided to do of course dinner and a movie. Great, what movie? The Avengers, okay. I text him a few days before telling him that its playing at the local drive in and that it would be cheaper and fun. No he wants to see it in 3D IMAX. Okay Men and their IMAX, no worries.

First flag or I should have listened to the flag. The night before we go out he texts me saying do I mind if we just go to dinner, that he's a little short on funds. I said why don't I do this, I'll buy the movie tickets since I know you really want to see the movie, and dinner was my idea. He said no you don't have to, I said my treat. so I buy the tickets. damn $35!!! for two movie tickets but okay, he's paying for dinner. 

Day of the date. I drive over to his place, and he comes out. I ask him if he knows where we are going, he says no. So we go into his place as he gets the address, then we go back out. Wait where's your car, oh I thought you were driving, uhhh no remember we talked about you would drive since I was coming over here. He said oh yeah okay. Now don't think badly of me but I was expecting some really nice car, since this is the reason why he is always BROKE he says. He pulls out in this beat up old corolla that he keeps in the garage, but okay we're off. 

We get to the restaurant, we park, and we walk in. Well I should say he walks in front of me, doesn't open the door, and when the hostess goes to seat us, walks in front of me, sits down first etc. Now yes I know don't be so picky but it is the little things about dating that really touch me. So we're at dinner and they bring two different things of salsa and chips. Without even asking me he says well we can do without the green salsa since I don't like it. I was like uhh but I do. The waiter comes to take out order and just as I was about to tell him what I wanted, Date says yeah I'll have the..... am I wrong but isn't it proper etiquette to let the woman order first? It was little things like that of just manners. Then the check comes the waiter looks and me and says who gets the check tonight, making it a little awkward, but I point to the date. When the waiter leaves, I said well that was strange, date said well I thought we were splitting it. I was like huh? Then said well I guess we can okay. I put my card down and the waiter came to take it, but I stopped him and said can you put half and half on the cards. Date takes his card out, UHH WTHECK you want me to pay for this date or what? Checks come back and before I'm even done signing or figuring out the tip. I was like woooooo nelly. 

Back in the car, have to get to theater. Get to theater parking, park other side of mall. Walk to theater, oh wait walk behind him. Get to theater pick up tickets, Find seats right in front, cause theater is packed! Movie ends, use restroom, walk to car, drive home, I decided I was gonna go home instead of stay, tell him in house, date actually attempts to kiss me. I start to leave, date doesn't even walk me to my car, or wait till I am at my car before closing and locking door behind me. 

Now am I wrong or shouldn't a guy who was hoping to get into your panties be a little bit I don't know more outgoing. What is wrong with men these days and making sure the woman they are on a date with is safe. I don't get it really? 

Maybe I really am old fashioned, maybe I am expecting to much I don't know. What I do know is that it for some reason I am always surprised at men when on a date, sometimes good, most of the time bad. Awww the war wounds of dating.