It’s one of those Monday’s were I just don’t want to do
anything. My mind is in a million places and none of them are in the place they
should be, work. *sighs*
It was a long weekend of Birthday celebrations, friends in
from out of town, club night and drunkenness at brunch Sunday. I loved it!!!
Some of my peoples met Her at brunch, everyone seems to really like her and are
happy for me. It was so nice to have her there and to just laugh and share it
with her. Than today happens. I sensed something was strange on her text and
asked her about it, I knew she wasn’t feeling well but honestly didn’t think
there was anything wrong with us.
She proceeds to tell me that she wants us to concentrate on
the friendship part of our relationship more than anything else. This caught me
off guard and totally turned me upside down. I thought we both were in the same
place, I thought we were moving towards a committed relationship. She said that
she felt it was too soon for some of the emotions I was expressing or voicing.
I’m so confused I finally let my wall down, I finally was okay with things
accepted my feelings and then BAM it feels like I was pushed into a lake and
not even sure how to paddle.
So how do I react to this? My first reaction as always is to
push away and lock myself down. But I don’t want to do that, I care too much
for her. So I sit here at work not
really able to concentrate on anything as I think about her and how I go on from
this.
Is it really too soon? Can’t you know right away if someone
is the one?
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