I want a soda!!

So my biggest food addiction, well probably any addiction if I have one is the addiction to soda. A good old fashioned coke a cola. Ice cold, in crushed ice, yumminess. Its my drug of choice I suppose.

So I cut ALL soda out of my life 12 days ago, not a slip, not a sip since. I know that I can't otherwise I will be right back to a 32oz in the morning and go from there. I know that in order to lose the weight that I am striving for and the goals I have set for myself I have to NOT drink soda.

Today something came over me in the fact that I wanted SODA! BADLY. I've been really good no soda in the house, no diet even nothing, but today I really really really wanted it. I posted it in the weight loss group to get support from the girls and boy did I get support!!!

So I got a sweet tea and congratulated myself that I didn't drink soda. Now if I could just focus myself and my mind into working out. Force myself to push play and work out, till I get to the point where I LOVE working out. I don't know why I am a better group exercise person than I am a video exercise person. UGH!!!

I battled the urge to fall off the wagon today...I'm sure there will be many many more of these cravings and wants but I will take them as they come one step and one set back at a time. Because I'm calling in my goals and giving it to the universe.

Shhhhh I'm playing hooky!

SHHHHH I decided to take the day off, woke up this morning with a bit of a migraine, and had a BUNCH of things to do around my place before game night with the girls. But what have I done? Nothing but played on the computer. I have NO EXCUSE I should have exercised, done dishes, cleaned already...but noooooo.

Where are the cleaning gnomes when you need them?

50/50 Challenge of 2012

I'm an avid reader, movie watcher, theater participant. So when I heard about this 50/50 challenge for 2012, I thought omgoodness this is right up my alley!


The challenge is to watch 50 movies and read 50 books in 2012. Can you imagine how awesome you would feel when you finished the challenge? I already ready a ton of books so this is right up there and now I just have to come up with 50 movies I haven't seen and I'll be right on track.


What's your favorite movie? Book? Maybe I haven't read or seen it. Suggestions would be greatly appreciated!!

For more information about the challenge go to http://www.fiftyfifty.me/

I'm sad!

Not really sure why I'm sad, I just am. I feel the tears really close to pouring and a part of me wonders what is going on. I've had a pretty good day. Took an hour long hike with V, then went grocery shopping and took a nap. Tonight joining the girls and their guys for the comedy show. THAT MIGHT BE IT!! It might be that I'm going to be there single, and everyone else is going to be a coupled up. I feel alone a lot these days.

D had to cancel on our date last night. He said he had to work. Today though he had all sorts of issues going on. *frowns* N said he didn't feel comfortable about communicating anymore because of what pix did. So yes I feel totally LONELY and sad!

I'd just like to meet a guy that wants to hold my hand, laugh with me, thinks I'm worth not letting go. Someone who would get jealous over someone else being interested in me. I know I know manifest and give to the world and it will come. *sighs* My question these days is WHEN!

I have to cut bait with D. Move on from something I know will never be, or never was suppose to be. Delete and move on quickly from those that don't realize how amazing you are, so you can make room for those that do.

Turn that frown upside down and you'll be full of a smile.

I lost 8 lbs!!

Our first weigh in was today, and I lost 8 lbs!!! WHOO WHOOT!!! I know most of it is probably due to cutting soda out and probably water weight….but STILL its 8 LBS!!!

I’ve having a hard time with exercising, I can eat really healthy especially when I plan and stay to the plan as I have been. But exercise, UGH!!! I can’t seem to get myself to get up and push that play button on the DVD. So I asked the girls to help keep my accountable and motivated! V said she’d start texting me in the morning when she gets up to motivate me to get up and push play. I think that might help.

I feel amazing already, so much energy, now if I can just get myself into the exercise part, and my sleep schedule down it’ll be AWESOME!!

D & I had our first date last night. I received free passes to the premiere of The Devil Inside, what a terrible movie. Oh it was AWFUL! I’m a horror movie fanatic as many of you know, but this, this was TERRIBLE!!! I thought at one point I was going to barf from the motion sickness effect of the moving camera. Plus it was such a take off of other similar movies, it was really pathetic, and so not even worth the free passes.

But the time with D was wonderful. After the movie he walked me to my car and we talked for like an hour or so. Omgoodness I haven’t talked about The Past to a guy that much in a long time. It was strange and upsetting because I don’t want to talk about the past I don’t want to think about him, I’d like to move on as I have been with my life. But something about D and the situation with his current ex, brings that stuff up and to the forefront. I like him, he’s sexy, funny, Italian, seems true, and I would have loved to have kissed him, but I extended the first tree branch so from here I have to sit back and let him be the man in the situation. Let him provide the happiness. We have a second date tonight so we’ll see what happens.

I’m so in adoration with life right now, I’m so grateful to my Higher Power, Angels, Spirits and Guides that I don’t know what to do with myself!

Life Change Day one

I had the day totally planned out, since it was day one of my new life and back to work. I packed my food last night, set the alarm so I could get up in time to workout and start out on the right foot.

Alas I woke up late!! But I woke up to a text from work saying I had the day off...WHOO HOOO!!! Good thing cause I hadn't slept well the night before. So I slept in, then got up ate a balanced egg sandwich breakfast, cleaned my room, worked out and DAMN am I HUNGRY!!! It could be that I hadn't really ate much today, but still I realized I was obsessing about food. So I made up a shake and realized I needed some water. UGH!!! This life change things sorta sucks!!

I took some new photos on my walk the other day. I really do like photography, and writing. So I'm going to try and do more of that this year. I also heard someone say today that one of their goals this year is to be present in life. To put the computer, phone, texting, etc down and talk more to people in person , experience those around them. I thought that was an excellent goal. Life really is short and enjoying every moment you can with those around you will add a smile and memory to them.

So enjoy the photos, enjoy today and enjoy life!

Happy 2012!

So its 2012, and a new year, new choices, new adventures a new path on life. This year is about me getting healthy physically and staying on the path to a balanced life.

So I've set my 12 goals, written them down, posted them here, and making myself accountable for them. They are:

1. Stick with the 90 day Challenge ~ starts 1/2/12~ already balanced it out.
   
2. Lose 80 lbs by Dec 1, 2012 ~ sticking with my workout and eating path will help here.
   
3. Run the Tinkerbell ½ marathon in Jan 2013
4. 1 5K a month.- run them by May 2012
5. 100 a month to savings for Australia Trip.
6. Pay off Lap Top and TV by March
7. 2 new active assistant organizers for Girl Power ~ already have one.
   
8. Try out a new church each month ~ set up on calendar for the first 6 months
   
9. Volunteer @ Monarch once a month
10. Spend one afternoon a month with Mum & Dad
11. No contacting of past lovers
12. No Sex till CR-5 dates- decide and let go.

Some of them will be difficult to ado when my feelings are down, or when I'm feeling lonely, but I know that If I stick to them and remember that I am a lady that is worth all that life has to offer than the right one will come along, and my life will be healthier and happier.

2012 will be awesome!!!