No Lunch Today.

After a little over 5 years I was suppose to meet Yumminesses little girl today at lunch. We had it all planned out, going to take her to her favorite resturant, The Olive Garden, I bought her a little gift. I was really excited and nervous about the entire thing, excited because this would be a HUGE step in our relationship moving forward, nervous about it not happening. Sure enough it didn’t, maybe our Higher Power doesn’t really see us as being together I don’t know. Whatever it is we didn’t have lunch today.

Now before you go getting your feathers in a ruffle there was good reasoning, they found out today that his little girl is going to need heart surgery. I don’t know the details but I do know that she has been a sick little girl for about 6 months. It’s been really hard on him and I understand this. So he will really need to focus his attention on his little girl and take care of himself. It was a fear of mine when he told me that they found out she had an enlarged heart, but attempting to push my Fear away as Fear being F-orget E-verything A-nd R-egress I held onto the positive and hoped that my Higher Power would see to it allow us to move forward together. Wishful thinking.

I know that this is really all out of my hands…that I have absolutely NO control over this, but trust me it is difficult, to know the man that you really care about is going through a fight for his little girls life and he won’t let you in to help. *sighs* and so it is.