Pet Peeves...Distractions...and those little things ya put off.

I realize as I get older that I have more and more little pet peeves. Before I thought I really only had a few like making sure the shower curtain is always closed, or young kids in an inappropriate movie, guacamole in a burrito when I specifically said NONE. Those are really just a few, but as I have gotten older I have realized a lot more things bother me like people who RSVP yes to an event and don't show up, people who say I'll call you RIGHT back and than really don't, Bad food service, stupid drivers, closed minded people, and the worse is when you get in someones car and there is trash all over the seat and floor....grrrr (that reminds me I need to clean my car out). As I was growing up I noticed my parents especially my mom having similar upsets and I thought it was embarrassing, but I have realized as I have gotten older that what it really is, is not being able to stand disrespect.

So I am trying to mentally take a step back and just not allow these things to upset me. To seriously remind myself that I am powerless over these issues. Its not like I can change the closed minded person they have to do it them selves. Its not like I can make a stupid driver driver better, or make that person call me back right away and keep their word. So instead of allowing these things to get me upset I am working towards just accepting it as it is. and so it is.

So sometimes in life I realize that ya need distractions, especially when it comes to romantic heartaches. So Yumminess and I are talking again and I am realizing that if I am going to be his friend I have to stop having expectations. My GF K, said that to me yesterday and I thought ya know you're absolutely right. Its not like I have expectations of my other guy friends, or maybe I do. I don't know, but I am really going to try and be okay if he doesn't meet my expectations especially since we are only friends. But how do you do that when you know that you are more than friends, its not like when I see my friends O'side or B the teacher that I have this overwhelming want to kiss them, nope that only happens with yumminess. So I need a distraction, to distract my from that heart ache of wanting to be with yumminess. I am working on this, I've recently been talking to a new guy so we will see where that goes, if anything maybe a good distraction. *smiles*

I use to be all about having a CLEAN house, Car and hair. I have realized over the last year that although I keep a clean house, car and hair, that its not as front and center as in my past. That I will put cleaning off myself till I can't stand it anymore, cleaning my car till I'm really embarrassed (most of the time its just cluttered) or not wash my hair every day. I've become LAZY!!! Like today I should be cleaning my house and here I am writing a blog, I was sick last weekend so my house really is a mess and tomorrow is the girlie book club night and I really do need my house to be clean!!! But I am putting it off....grrrr...and don't get me started on laundry, I will literally put that off till I am out of panties and even than sometimes I consider going and buying more panties instead of doing laundry. Those little things ya put off!!!

Maybe these are all about getting older, or maybe its how you evolve as you get older, or maybe its just becoming more aware of what you do, how you react, or even worse treat others as you get older. Whatever the reason, I am defiantly more aware of my pet peeves, distractions and little things I put off.