Each Day I get stronger.

Sometimes missing someone doesn’t necessarily mean that you want to be with them or go back to them. It simply means that you miss the time that you were together.

Last night I cried myself to sleep for the first time in a very very long time. I heard a song on the radio by Sara Evans called “a little bit stronger” and the song hit me like a rock. When I went to sleep I was thinking about the song and it brought up all these memories of Pbrain and I. *sighs*

It’s strange because although I fell asleep crying last night about my relationship with Pbrain, it’s Yumminess whom I miss the most. Maybe every break and move on triggers a past heartache? If that’s so Lordy help me what the future brings.

They say it takes half as long as the time you were together to get over someone. So that means 2 years and I guess I am right on path for that. I will say that it defiantly doesn’t happen over night, that it takes each day moving on and getting stronger to move past the hopes, dreams, promises of a once was. But each day that you do move on, you get a little stronger. Sometimes just pretending you’re okay, till its true works.

I think back to this time last year and realize how much pain I was still in, but it was much less than it was that previous August, or November.

I believe that with each love, adoration, lust, passion, that you allow into your life for what every period of time, that it changes your heart. That as much as you might want it to be, your heart is never the same.

I will say this that even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.