Some people

Some people really do continue to surprise me. I spilled a part of myself last night to M and than asked him to come over, he didn't. I'm not sure what to think of that. I really like him but I am so tired of the fighting and what seems like pulling things out of each other.

I don't know why can't it just be simple and easy? Why does everything have to always seem so hard? Why can't he want to spend time with me? He says I'm needy and want some fairytale relationship. That my Blog states that. *sighs* I don't think it does. I think I want a man who is into me and don't really see anything wrong with that.

Is it that he hasn't been in a relationship for a long time? That he was married for so long or that he's so independent that oh hell if I know anything anymore. I just know that Valentines day sucked bootie!

And now I feel like crying again. Cuddling just doesn't seem to be the answer for me these days. tomorrow is a new day and the sun will come up and well its a new day. Who knows, that will teach me to open myself up. I don't know why I did, maybe to show him that I trusted him and did care. Was I yet again being a fool?

I'm considering close you down my dear Blog. Just too much DRAMA...*sighs*