Unanswered Prayers

My GF Jess recently told me that she’s been listening to Garth Brooks “unanswered prayers” a lot lately and relates to it because of her ex that she broke up with a few months ago after an on and off for 8 years. It’s hard for any length of time of a break up but 8 years seems like forever. Two months later she is still missing him and at times wants to contact her, I try to help her stay strong and remind her that she will always miss him, but that 4 years from now it should be easier (they say ½ the time you were together it takes to heal).

But it got me thinking and I listened to the song again. I remember the feeling when The Past and I broke up that life would NEVER move on, that I would always be in pain. I remember praying to my HP to just have The Past come back to me, to realize that he loved me. I remember getting mad at my HP for not answering my prayers.

Fast forward almost 4 years later and I realized that if my HP had answered those prayers I wouldn’t have grown spiritually, emotionally, mentally, physically. I would never have created GP, or met all the amazing women in the group. I would never have understood the power or dynamics in my family, and would have lived me life with a man who didn’t love me the way that I deserve to be loved.

Am I ungrateful for the time I had with The Past? No, because I needed that time to understand my life today. Would I ask to not have gone through the pain I did during the break up? Ask me that 4 years ago and I would have HOLLERD YES!!! But today no I’m grateful for the pain, the healing, the understanding, acceptance of the truth.

I still miss the friend I had in The Past at times, but I know that my HP has a higher plan for me and a partner that is truly everything he is suppose to be for me, just as I am everything I am suppose to be for him.

Thank heavens for unanswered prayers!