Is the door really locked?

So a strange thing has happened the past few months that really wouldn't seem that significant I suppose if I didn't have this strange psychic feeling that our paths aren't done. Ever get that feeling about someone from your latter days? That your time together hasn't ended quite yet? That the door hasn't been completely closed? No I am not talking about The Past, although I do have a similar feeling about him and I. No No this is about a very special man from actually before The Past came into my life. My dear KC.

KC and I had a wonderful 3 months together before he was sent to Guam for schooling and then onto Bahrain for what has turned out to be a 5 year tour. Although KC and I had a very short time together I will say that it was a truly powerful time. In the 3 month that we were together he showed me what a man in love does for a woman. At the time I will admit I wasn't as nice as I should have been. I did things to try and push him away, as was my protocol, but KC always stood by and talked things through with me.

Even after he left we tried to keep things together. Then I met The Past and he let me go. We have stayed friends via sporadic emails and IM's. KC always seemed to pop up on my IM on just the days that I have needed him, to talk me through things. I have always had this under lying love for him, respect and sensuality. I've had some very sensual dreams about him and some pretty bad nightmares.

So what is the strangeness that I am talking about? Well I re-added KC on my IM list about 2 months ago...he accepted but he has never IM'd me. He has logged on a few times and I don't know till he logs off and it notifies me. I am a bit baffled as every time we talk he tells me how he misses me, loves me and would like to see me again. But the non-communication leaves me baffled. I have IM'd him a few times after seeing the log off message, saying really? No hello? I even sent and email the other day asking what was going on. No response.

So is this just one door that is closed and I am trying to will it open again with no key?