How do you let go?

What do you do when you want to let go, walk away, give up yet you don't know how to? That's the recent issue I realize I am facing with Yumminess.

Today the sign was really hard and strong and I realized that nothing is going to change Yummines "can't/won't" isn't going to change tomorrow, this weekend, next week or maybe even next month. He's not in the same place as I am or need him to be and My compromising level has pretty much hit rock bottom, can't go much lower than having no leverage to compromise on.

I can't fault him for being honest and knowing he's not in the same place as me. I can't, am I sad about it? Sure? do I wish things were different yes? But they aren't they are the exact same as they where yesterday, last week, 6 months ago and no matter how much I may care about him, wait, wish, pray or hope its not going to change.

Just as I can't change the needs that I have or the wants from this relationship. We are just not in the same place and who knows if we ever really will be.

They say goes if you love something set it free if it comes back it was meant to be. All night I have been asking myself but what if you don't know how to let it free? What if you want to with all your might but you just don't know how to?

I know that it is going to be a difficult process to let go of Yumminess, there are going to be very real moments when I am going to want to reach out, there are going to be Sad/lonely moments when I am going to want to text or email or something. But I have to be strong and Not, I have to know that the best thing is to cut all ties and to really in my heart hope that one day he finds whatever it is that he needs.

Healing and moving on it feels like I was just here. One day I'll look back and smile with fondness for a time in my life when Yumminess made my face light up with a smile and my heart jump just a little. One day that will be true, once the healing is done.