Numbness shouldn't surprise me.

Why am I always so surprised by people? I really shouldn't be. Earlier this evening I got a phone call from G its been awhile and I was quite surprised by everything he was telling me. So much had happened in his life the past few months. But what did it for me was that this woman whom he had sex with, they are now living together. I was dumbfounded and sat on the phone not really sure what to say to him, so I said that I was glad to hear that things were turning around and that he was safe and happy. But that I didn't want to get into the middle of the drama or cause issues for him and his GF.

Its funny how someone you had feelings for and thought that they had for you can just turn your stomach upside down when you find out where they are in their life. Or that you never meant anything to them.  I suppose what it made me realize more than anything is how much I appreciate HS in my life and all that he has brought into it the past few weeks. The other positive (as if I have to find more) is that I am ever so grateful that G and I didn't last. I wouldn't have wanted to be in the drama or realize that I was being used. 

He seemed sincere on the phone, but I really don't know what to feel or say. I'm  feeling a bit numb over the entire thing, shocked that he moved in with this woman, after telling me that he didn't want to date, or be serious about anyone. He tells me that its different she's a family friend they have known each other for years, that the boys know her, etc etc. But *shaking head* that is suppose to make me feel better? I sometimes wonder if people realize that things they say might seem okay but can sting like a bee and poison like a spider. 

I cared about him at one time. Tonight I just feel numb not sure why that surprised me.