I wish my brain could tell my heart where to go. This
weekend was a test of whatever it was supposed to do, say, feel, on top of it I
started my cycle so it just helped make things that much more intense and
emotional.
As I complained about earlier I admitted to him that I was
having feelings for him and then it seemed that I was ignored all weekend. I
guess it was a rough weekend for him with the soon to be ex and being sick.
*Sighs* could my brain tell my heart/feelings to just not feel? That would be
so much easier and so much more of sanity than this feeling I am constantly
feeling at the moment.
Yumminess is causing heartache also. Can’t he just leave and
the feelings go away with him? It would/will never go anywhere so why do I
still have these feelings for him after so many years? Why the feeling of just
give it a damn chance!!!
Oh that road map from the brain would be so welcomed right
now!
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