Second Chances

I believe that people are put into our lives for a purpose. Like the saying goes a reason, a season or lifetime. I have always believed that people are put into my life like this, to teach, guide and offer support. I believe that when we are in heaven we make pacts with people on how long they will be in our lives, and we look forward to seeing them on earth when the time comes.

I believe all this and it has helped me mourn, celebrate and get past the lost of friends, lovers and family members. So when I end up smack against a wall wondering if second chances with a past lover is possible I try to look inward to look for the answers and unfortunately I can’t come up with an answer and my guides, angles, higher power haven’t reveled the answers to the question so far.

Many moons ago before I met The Past, I met an amazing man KC. KC and I had three very short but memorable months together before the military sent him over seas for what was suppose to be a three month schooling turned into almost five years in the sands of Bahrain. At first we pledged to stay together and things where strong and memorable, till the military turned that three month school tour into the sands of time. We stayed in touch here and there over the years, till we lost touch about three years back. Recently I did a search for him on Facebook and found him. My heart beating quickly and nervously I sent a FB request and an email.

The waiting to hear back from him part is a bit jarring as my impatience is known worldwide, and the fear that he is married, living elsewhere, our time has passed or whatever it maybe fills me with fear beyond belief.

KC was always this unfinished chapter; he was always that man that everyone else had to live up to. Emotionally, physically, mentally, sexually, the connection between us was electric and powerful.

I find myself sometimes floating back to that morning kissing him good bye as I drove off to work. Filled with mixed emotions of sadness but excitement to see him again in just a few months, that was more than five years ago. Could a second chance at an amazing relationship that ended prematurely really happen? Can a second chances at love occur?