Let go and let God.

The past few weeks I’ve been really upset over the friendship end between A and I, to the point that I physically got sick from the stress. I’ve been thinking over and over about how to fix things without sacrificing my own personal boundary and realized that I can’t fix it.

Something was said to me last night by a mutual friend that actually angered me a bit about the entire situation. I’ve not discussed the issues between A & I with any of our mutual friends, they all know something is going on but it hasn’t come from me. I’ve worked really hard at not talking about the situation and expressing that the issue is between A & I. That I’m not going to talk bad about her to anyone, there is no reason to, I care about her too much, we're just having a situation right now. I don't want people to feel like they have to choose sides, there are not sides.

It would be unhealthy and unnecessary and only cause more hurt feelings. I'm having to remind myself that not everyone thinks this way and that is common for women to try and get everyone on their side and talk smack about the other person. Is this really healthy? Is this the mature way to handle things? I don’t know I just know that it’s not how I am going about handling things. I want them all to be friends, I want them to all respect each other, I don’t want to be talked about negatively who does, but I can’t control what others do or say and I have to remind myself of that every time I start to get sad about the situation.

I’ve extended a branch to A a few times via text, saying that I miss her friendship, etc. and nothing back. So I have been struggling lately with the gift I got her for her birthday and the group’s season tickets to the theater. I decided that I’m not going to send the birthday gift that it wouldn’t be appreciated or wanted at this time and may actually look like I am trying to suck up. The fact that I was honest in my email to A and have since tried to talk the situation out to no response back from her has said to me that she really wants nothing to do with me and I’m going to respect that and not contact her.

As far as the theater tickets I don’t know why I am stressing over them, it’s a GP event. A decided to leave the group she’ll have to figure out how she wants to deal. *shrugs* end of story.

I’ve been praying that my Higher Power/God/Angels/Guides would bring a solution to the issue/stress between A & I, what I forgot while doing that was to let go and they will deal with it. So I’m letting go! There is only so much one can do, and the rest you leave in their hands!