Lately I’ve realized that I haven't really listened to the radio that much while in the car. I’ve been listening to Adele’s CD a lot or talk radio. So today on the way to lunch I decided to turn my favorite country station on, a new song came on by Lee Brice “A woman like you” The song was so sweet and made me feel so much worse than I had already this morning.
Is there really a man out there that will look at me one day and be happy that he had met me and that I was in his life? Someone who would look for a woman like me if I wasn’t in his life? Someone that wakes up in the morning with a smile because he knows I’m his, and he’s lucky for having me in his life.
It’s so funny I can put what I’m seeking and want in a partner in country love songs, easier than I can in life. I just want my best friend, my lover, my hero, protector, maybe men like that are only found in songs these days.
I didn’t realize in such a short time how much I liked being in a relationship. How comfortable I had gotten with getting a good morning text from him, which would brighten my morning. Making plans for things to do in the near future, talking to him before we’d lay down to sleep, having someone excited to see me, someone to make dinner for, someone to call my own, a BF.
Nutterbutter keeps telling me to just give G space and let him go to the well to think. I’m trying I really am and I know that is what he needs. But I feel so out of sorts and so in limbo like am I in a relationship with him or not? A part of me really doesn’t understand why it can’t go back to the way it was, the other part already senses and knows that it will never be the same again, ever again. G will never see me as he did on Sunday again, never been charmed and enchanted with me. All because I allowed my fears over react and spoke honestly about them.
Is the man I dream of only to be found in a country love song?
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