We've all heard the the saying follow your instincts, gut feeling, sixth sense, whatever you want to refer to it as. But what happens when your body reacts differently then those instincts? That's what happened to me yesterday. The kiss that my friend landed on me for a little bit had my mind thinking about the possibility of something more with this man. Unfortunately for him my instincts won out in the morning light and trusting in those instincts proved me right this afternoon when he angrily accused me of somethings and I called our friendship off.
Its funny how we can easily point fingers at people and not see our own actions. I apologized for anything I might have done to effect the situation and owned up to my actions. But as is his normal MO he blamed everyone else around for his part of it. *sighs* As my friend J says, you bite the bullet on that one girl.
In other news....I stood up a possibly really nice guy tonight without even realizing I was doing it. I have never in my life done that. I was at work till 7 tonight working on a HUGE BID for tomorrow, which would mean I would be back at work full time. Which is my goal. This wonderful man and I set up the date last week and then I got cold feet after reading his profile. Then I contacted him and apologized, what I didn't realize was that we were suppose to be keeping the original date. He IM'd me about 7 pm saying well I waited 45 mins. it was nice meeting you. I FELT TERRIBLE!! I still do! Anyone that knows me that is so not my MO!!! So how do I rectify this? I apologized and explained that I was at work still. *sighs* all I can do is apologize and hope that one day he will forgive me. I'm powerless over others and their reactions.
Oh how the body can over ride the mind....be remember in our mind is where we have to finally live with everything we do.
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