Interesting what happens when you stick to your boundaries.

Funny thing when I stand by my boundaries those around me don't know what to do with it.

I went to my first SLAA meeting last night. It was interesting and I seriously am starting to wonder about my addiction with this and how it is effecting my soul and getting healthy. I will say that the tools I have learned through my other program and the paths I have already taken helped me stick to my boundary with my FB, we'll call him Washington.

Washington and I have been seeing off and on since Sept. We started out with dating but we have definitely become just FB's. I use to stay the night but the past few months it has become me going over there pretty late at night doing the deed and leaving. I always feel so used after wards, used might not be the right word, guilty, dirty might be better.

After our last get together about a month ago I swore to myself that 1 of 2 things was going to happen next time we got together either he was coming to my place or I was staying over if I went over there. So he is leaving on Monday for a month, some training for work. Today we text all day talking about having tonight free, that he's off work @ 6. So We agree that I'm going to come over. He's so worked up etc. I don't hear from him @ 7, then 8 he texts saying he just got home. Around 10 he texts saying come over, I say if I'm coming over I'm staying. To which he didn't like. He kept texting and iming to which I stood my ground saying if I come over I'm staying. He finally @ 11:30 said come over and stay. I decided by that time that I was ready for bed and not going. He didn't like that and said well I'm not begging you. I then said well if you would have had me over at a reasonable time we would of been okay. Even though Washington and I are only FB's there has to be some respect and he doesn't get that.

So although the sex part would have been nice(incredible, it always is with him) I stood by my boundaries and morals and didn't go.

Amazing when you set your boundaries and stand by them how rewarding it feels.