Making demands before ya meet is fruitless

That's what she gets....that's what she gets for loving me. That song just totally hits me over and over when I think about the type of relationship that I would like. A man who is smitten with me, someone I can count on, someone to chase the nightmares away.

So I have a date tonight. I'm struggling with this a bit, because I have a meeting tonight and although I haven't gone to it the past 2 weeks I was planning on going this evening. But now I am changing plans to go on this date with this guy? Why S? A part of me feels really guilty for doing it, the other part is like just enjoy it.

Let's call him Mr. Smooth. He emailed me the other day from a site that I chat on, was asking me about the Meet & Greet that I hosted on Sat. I wasn't able to email hm back because of meeting my email quota for that day so I contacted a female whom I knew, knew him. She gave me his IM I sent an IM to him. We kept missing each other that day. But we were able to chat a bit today and then talked on the phone. I do have concerns about the fact that he was/is a playmate of this females. But as I expressed that to him he was willing to give her up for the time being if it meant I'd go on a date with him. I realized "S you're making demands on someone you don't even know if you'll click with" Although his voice is a sweet country twang that makes me melt. I told him No you don't have to do that I'll go out with you. So alas we have a date this evening.

It taught me to not put to many expectations and demands on someone before you even meet them. Get off the WHAT IF merry go round! Enjoy someone without expectations...because making demands before ya even meet is fruitless.

If feels good to be open and honest about what I am looking for, wanting in a relationship, sticking by my integrity.