I’m having a lot of anxiety and worries today. I can’t shake
that something else is going to happen. No matter how much you tell me that you’re
fine and nothing thinking those thoughts, I still can’t shake it. I feel like
an overprotective mother watching to make sure her child doesn’t die of SIDs.
The only time I feel sane at the moment is when I am with you and that’s not
fair to the others in my life.
So tonight I am forcing myself to have a wonderful evening
with K. Going to leave my phone off and spend time with him. Talk, love and
laugh with him. I can worry about you later but tonight I am going to reconnect
with the hubs.
If you’re going to do it again, there is NOTHING I can do to
change that. There is nothing I will ever be able to say, do or wish for that
the not happen. All I know is that I can’t continue on as tightly wound up as I
am.
So many worries, money, work, you, K, just all of life at
the moment. One of my vision board goals for the year was to let go of worries,
so I am going to work on that.
Breathe and let go, because we know I can't control it.
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