Where are you?

How do I express that I know something is wrong? How do I tell my brain to not think about the worst? How do I stop my heart from cropping up into my throat and wanting to burst out in pain? You’ve been missing for over a day now, two days if you could last time I saw you. Its so strange I can go two days (barely) without seeing you because we’re busy, but two days with you missing feels like a hundred moons.

The police went to your apartment yesterday, Senior Chief Sandoval called them. You weren’t there of course, and no foul play in your apartment.  I keep trying to search my brain if I a missing something.  Did you give me a clue? Did you say anything about going anywhere, doing anything? No, you simply said you were going to get uniforms ready for the next day. So what is my brain missing, what is my heart not letting me see?

I contacted your mom today before I filed a police report. I think I was more scared to contact her than your command. But when your command doesn’t know where you are and they are calling me something is really wrong. Where are you A? Why is your phone off? What has happened to you? I try not to let my brain go into over board mode of Law n Order scenarios, but so many things are popping into my brain right now that I can’t seem to stop them.

I’m tired and drained. I miss you so much and would give anything to just have you in my arms, to just kiss you, smile, and touch your face. Did you know you were going to take off? Did you just take off and not really care about anyone else, or work, or what not? I don’t believe that, I can’t, I can’t believe that you would just throw your career away and school for a lil stress. I could be wrong, I could not know you at all and you could have just went a wall, but I have to believe that what I know about you isn’t wrong and if that is the case WHERE ARE YOU?

Where are you?