Ride or Die.

You always said that we were Ride or Die’s you called me chosen family, sisters in leather.  Yet the minute I choose a decision that I feel is best for me you walk away. You not only walk away, you walk away from your commitments. You end our friendship. You abandon me. Why? Because I’m not doing what you want me to do? Because I made a decision for myself right now that is best for me? I never asked you to support him, I never even asked you to talk to him again. I asked for space to process and figure things out for myself. I asked you to love me and support me.

Who knows MAYBE it is the wrong decision. But no one knows! No one knows what the future is going to hold. I may get crushed, my heart might break into a trillion pieces, and he may end up to be a waste of my time and energy, but we don’t know this right now. It may also be the best decision I ever make in my life, I may have found a love that I didn’t know existed, I may have found a missing part, we don’t know but as my sister I would have expected you to stand by me.

Never again, will I be dragged into or convinced that someone has my back, like you. I thought you did. I really did, I thought that after all these years and after being here for all these things that I showed my love and commitment, what I didn’t know was all it would take is one decision.  I really can’t wrap my head around any of it, I still can’t.

Ride or Die- isn’t that no matter what you stand by the person that it’s not conditional?